Wednesday, May 28, 2008

I am just popping in quick to say hello, and thank you for so many well wishes, and e-mails. This blog has really been a blessing to let out my creative energy, and it has been to my surprise I have met so many great women who share a passion for art, life, family, and also share with me a little part of them. So thank you!!

OK, to be honest, I am a wreck. I feel like I did when I gave birth. You know that tired worried, cannot sleep you are so exhausted kind of tired. Well, that is what I feel like. I have had some good cries, some anger, some jealousy over other parents who don`t have to deal with this diabetes stuff. I am told that these feeling are all very normal. I am trying to deal with them now so they don`t pop there ugly little head later in my life. The kids are handling this amazingly well. Way better than me. Greer is the same happy , funny child, and Ben is the same easy-go-lucky, a little moody with becoming a teenager, but all in all, this has not changed them at all. I think in fact it has made them stronger. So, I will be OK. Just having a hard time, and that's OK too. Life is not a big old tea party all the time. I wish it was, but it`s not.

So whats a gal to do? Pick some bouquets of course. And share some pictures of them with you! I was thinking in the yard today..You know how when a flower dries up, and the pod has left its seeds behind? I always like to collect the seeds after they bloom. It is like a challenge for me, to see if I can get the seeds to germinate, and create a plant from one of my plants. I never knew how easy it was until I moved to Idaho and could grow so many things. I love to see the flowers grow, and it is nice to know that I helped them along the way. This may sound corny, but I will write it anyway: If you collect some seeds from a plant, you will be surprised to see how many seeds just one flower will produce . Literally hundreds. So here is the corny part. I believe that this is Gods way of showing me or you, that each one of those tiny seeds are second chances, to start all over again to make something beautiful out of your life. And if he does this for a flower, think of what he would do for me, or you? OK ,that's all the God talk. But I tell ya, I feel a little more connected to my higher power when I am out in the garden, or woods, or the beach.

So on that note..Off to bed, and fill ya in with other stuff real soon!


sugarcreekstuff said...

You can never be brave if only good things happen to you. - Mary Tyler Moore

That is one of my favorite quotes and gets me through. Sometimes the bad makes the good that much sweeter.

Anonymous said...

Sounds to me like you are reacting like any good mother would. It is so hard to see one of your children suffer and you have two that are sick. I'm so glad you found time to work with the flowers, you love flowers and are so creative with them. Hang in there!

Deb said...

Hi Julie
I've been away for a couple of days and just reading missed posts now - wow lots has been going on for you! Sending very best wishes to you and your family. Such a beautiful post ~ you have a great attitude!

bridgmanpottery said...

beautiful sentiments, Julie. I hope peace finds you soon! hugs-

Jenn said...

What a great post Julie!! Thinking of you and your family...and all those gorgeous flowers:):):) xoxox...jenn

melody ross said...

OH Julie,
What a beautiful are sure in my thoughts and prayers...

RowanDevoe said...

I love your gorgeous flowers and how you arrange and your fabulous vases and other ceramic pieces. I am so sorry you are having to deal with all of this. It is ok to be upset for sure. Every family has something-even if it doesn't look like it. Maybe their kids don't have an illness to deal with, but worse-maybe their kids are jerks! or, maybe they are jerks! Sorry if that sounds mean. At least you know your kids are good people and you are a sensitive and caring person yourself. It is good that you are surrounding yourself with the things and people you love!
Take care and I will be thinking of you,

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